Just lately, my thoughts keep returning to all things Slow.
Slow fashion, Slow food, Slow living, Slow blogging (yes, it is a ‘thing’!).
My suggestion of a Slow Christmas on the Facebook page got a very enthusiastic response.
The more I’ve been thinking about it, the more things I start to notice.
I’ve stumbled serendipitously across lots of slow living blogs, and this fabulous Slow Home podcast.
And then this post popped up in my Facebook feed, which featured this video:
The post, and it’s ‘To Don’t List” and the video bought tears to my eyes.
I am not a slow person by nature.
My head is constantly spinning with new ‘Amazing Ideas’ and I have a very short attention span. I give something my all, and then quickly tire of it and move on to the next shiny new idea.
I rush things as I am keen to get the end point, to see the finished article.
When I sew, I rush through each stage, eager to get to the next, and then eager to get it done, so I can wear it. Only to be disappointed at the end result, that isn’t quite as good it could be. Because I rushed.
I am constantly late, and rushing to get through a ‘to do’ list, and hurrying the kids along.
I am busy. I like to be busy. I like to make myself busy.
And after nearly 38 years, it is slowly dawning on me that there is another way.
I can slow down.
I can give myself permission to slow down.
To stop even, sometimes.
The ‘official’ Wikipedia definition of Slow Living is:
Slow Living means structuring your life around meaning and fulfillment. Similar to “voluntary simplicity” and “downshifting,” it emphasizes a less-is-more approach, focusing on the quality of your life. … Slow Living addresses the desire to lead a more balanced life and to pursue a more holistic sense of well-being in the fullest sense of the word.
I was talking to hubby about this night, and about the paradox that is me.
So much of what I do with this blog, and so much of what I learned during our year Buying Nothing New, is about being more conscious, and more deliberate about what we buy. It’s about valuing (making do with) what you already have. It’s about sharing experiences together, rather than buying stuff for each other.
So in some respects, I’m there. I’m living a slow life, in terms of our consumerism. I am very deliberate about my purchases. I slow down and stop and think before buying. I often have to wait to find the thing I am looking for. That’s ‘slow consuming’.
And yet in so many other areas I am not conscious, I am not deliberate, I do not stop and think. I do not stop.
I so desperately want to be content, to be happy in my skin, to be grateful for all I have. To slow down and smell the roses.
I want to have time to write more, to (learn to) take better pictures, to read more, to learn more, to make more, to be more.
To be. To be present. To be consious, and in the moment. And deliberate.
And yet I am always rushing. Never stopping. Always striving for more, for bigger, for better. Bigger and better what I am not even sure, but I am striving for it!
I am not sure if it is possible to learn slowness.
Is it something that you just ‘are’?
Some people have an air of calm around them. And the things they do seem very deliberate, very measured.
Is this something that can be learned?
I don’t know.
But I know that I want to try.